I'm having a wonderful time up at my grandpa's house in Los Alamos but am unable to enjoy it fully because I should be working. My deadline is looming and I feel like I can't afford any time off - but why do I get so worried? I've tried to draw up here but am not coming out with anything good, so it feels kind of like a waste of time. I'm torn between wanting to go back home to my studio and wanting to stay with my family. I know in the long run the latter will serve me better but right now I feel like I've just spent two days not working, instead of I've just spent two days with my family.
Isn't that horrible? But that's how I've always been and I guess it's how I get work done. My work is looking good but I'm past my self-proposed deadline of one painting a week because I had to leave in the middle of the week to get up here. My almost-finished painting is sitting at home, waiting to be finished, telling me I'm past my own deadline. Oh, the pressure.....
But it has been fun and I would be lying if I said I haven't enjoyed myself. I've been looking forward to this weekend for a long time and am trying very hard to not let my work ruin it. A few sketches are coming along and it's not a total loss!!
But I can't wait to get home tomorrow to start working again and make up for lost time. So many ideas are bouncing around I have to get them down before I forget them, which is what I'm doing now.
I'll get some more photos up soon, I've finished a few more pieces since my last picture. Cross your fingers for me!
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